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Reaktywacja (?)

2009-10-03T22:24:17Z

Nie pisałam nic tak około... pół roku? 24 tygodnie, jak mi to lj pokazał. Cóż, tak też bywa.

Jakoś tak nie miałam ochoty pisać. Myślę, że może to i lepiej, że w tym czasie się nie uzewnętrzniałam, bo z tego wyszłyby tylko pseudo-depresyjne wpisy, których i tak nikt nie czyta, a jak wspomina się je w czasie, to aż wstyd do tego się przyznać. Tak więc będzie optymistycznie.
Bo jak z nimi ma nie być? Są absolutnie boskie. Trochę głupio mi to pisać, biorąc pod uwagę, że notkę niżej jest zdjęcie Olka, ale... Olek to Olek.

A to Konstytucja i Anarchia.
Może i te imiona są dziwne, ale nawet nie macie pojęcia jak do nich pasują. Anarchia to chyba ma ADHD, a Konstytucja jest spokojna, wręcz nieśmiała. Ciągne układa chusteczki w domku, który Anarchia przerabia na wióry xD
Obie dostałam wczoraj (czy to jakaś tradycja się robi, że dostaję koszatniczki na urodziny? xD) i pewnie będę przez najbliższy miesiąc pieprzyć, czego to one nie zrobiły i jakie to nie są kochane. Bo są. I chociażby dlatego mi wesej niż zwykle.

For my little, yellow-teethed piece of love

2009-04-14T07:21:49Z

To my Olek. I don't know, to write, honestly. I made two entries about him and this is the last one. From obvious reason.
Bye, my dear.

Takie sobie gdybania...

2009-04-07T16:02:56Z

Tak sobie ostatnio myślałam...

Gdybym nie przestała tańczyć.

Tak mnie turniej nastroił. Masa ludzi do mnie podchodziła twierdząc, że pamiętają mnie jako małe dziecko, że dużo się zmieniłam itp.To takie dziwne, toż tych ludzi nawet nie kojarzyłam, a oni podchodzili, przytulali, dotykali włosów. Pełne osaczenie, nie mówiąc o braku jakiejkolwiek sensownej możliwości reakcji poza uśmiechem #027. A co byłoby, gdybym przestała?
- na pewno tańczyłabym w powyżej 15 lat (bo to najstarsza xP), a biorąc pod uwagę, że chłopak, z którym miałam tańczyć, tańczy w klasie B, to pewnie tak do C doszłabym;
- chodziłabym na solarium xD Tak, wszystkie dziewczyny i chłopcy w tej kategorii byli wysolarowani, wyfluidowani i wyżelowani. Błyszczyki poszły w ruch u obu płci;
- nie miałabym problemów z odchudzeniem się, bo nie musiałabym xP
- być może ojciec miałby mi coś więcej do powiedzenia niż 'dostałaś dziś jakieś oceny?', biorąc pod uwagę, iż rzeczonego tańca uczy
- byłabym przeciętna aż do bólu i nie miała z tym najmniejszego problemu

Gdyby Olek (koszatniczek) umarł.

Cóż, rzeczony koszatniczek ostatnio był chory, i to porządnie. Byłam z nim u weterynarza kilka razy, dostawał antybiotyk, wręcz osobiście mu go wciskałam. Zaowocowało to tym, że Olek bał się mnie, a polepszyć wcale mu się nie polepszyło. Nie mógł chodzić, nie chciał jeść, pić, wypadało mu futro, nie był w stanie utrzymać równowagi, a czasami rzucał się po klatce. Efekt?
- w sumie, trochę przestałam traktować klatkę z nim jak element wystroju pokoju. Tak już przez ponad pięć lat przyzwyczaiłam się, że on tam cały czas jest, że cieszy się, że przyszłam do domu itp.
- pomimo uwag mojej matki, że byłoby więcej miejsca na książki i ile tam książek nie ustawić, to byłoby pusto. Tak głupio, że jak położę książkę za blisko klatki, to jakiś szczurek się nią nie poczęstuje.

a teraz element humorystyczny...

Gdy już trafię do tego piekła.

Bo jakoś nikt nie ma co do tego wątpliwości xD
- siedziałabym w dusznym pomieszczeniu, słońce wpadałoby przez skierowane na południe okna i świeciło mi prosto w oczy;
- w takich oto warunkach rozwiązywałabym zadania z wielomianów jednocześnie poznając dosłowne znaczenie wyrażenia 'mózg mi się skręca'

Za wyżej wymienione grzechy nie żałuję i nie mam zamiaru się poprawiać.

Amen

Jedno słowo, cały tydzień...

2009-03-15T20:27:51Z

Bo ogólnie rzecz biorąc, ludzie są głupi, denni i nieciekawi. Do tego wszyscy dokładnie tacy sami-siebie warci. Aż szkoda na to patrzeć. A tu BRZDĘK! patrzeć trzeba, wręcz jest to przymus.
Nawet nie potrafi to być przez chwilę być cicho, tylko drze mordę od 7:30 rano. Zwariować można. Zakładając, że jeszcze mieszczę się w normie.

Amen.

Painful death during cold spring days

2009-03-08T18:26:06Z

I wanted to write new note since I don't remember when. And finally I forced myself to do so.

01. Winter break ended week ago. During this time I managed to catch cold and remind myself all reasons why I hate my school. Really, while I'm there I can question every positive thing I've ever heard about people in general. Not mentioning constant headache and other issues connected with being among too many people for too long (yes, I'm antisocial and I really can't help that).

02. As some people say, spring is coming. To be honest, I hate spring, mud everywhere and all those more-than-four-legded creatures awakening. Ugh. Spiders-in-wild. Appearing in my dreams isn't enought for them? _o_ Do they really need to exist? One good thing is, that during few warmer days they awakened while now is less than 0 degrees so... go and die painfully bitches~~

Tripple B-day note

2009-02-18T14:10:13Z

Yesterday was 17th February. So it means yesterday were my husband's and HIZAKI's birthdays.

Once again, happy 22 18 birthday, dear!

And second, happy birthday to you HIZAKI. Be more beautiful and elegant than most women, make more awesome music and rememmber, I'll come and steal all of your amazing dresses, so prepare~

And beacuse today is 18th Feabruary... happy birthday to YUKI too. You're also the best and even if you don't have dress I'd wish to have.

Ｈｅｌ’「p／ｌ」　Line　Ⅱ

2009-02-06T18:55:00Z

Few years ago I wrote mini-story called 'Hell Line- my first neostrada adventure' (org. 'Piekielna Linia- moja pierwsza przygoda z neostradą') and, to put it shortly, it was about my Internet provider and instalation. If I'll have too much free time (winter holidays are so close ^^ ) I can find it and translate (or not). But I didn't want to write anout this.

While I was standing on tram stop, thinking about painful way of dying for people responsible for 10 minute lateness of my tram (third stop from first one!), the 'Hel[p/l] line...' story reminded about itself. So, why not write second part? This time dedicated to pubblic transport....

Hel'[p／ｌ」　Line Ⅱ－I go to school by tram*

It was one of this days- you couldn't say if it's early morning or evening. Everything is covered by thick, sticky fog, cars' linght are puncturing throught, but you can't say exactly where. During this time even whether encounter us to stay in warm homes- and most of people, if they have this opportunity, do so.
But few people stay in the middle of nowhere. Why? Some of them have headphones over their ears, some stay in silence, some talk with others or by mobile and few even brought children! If you come closer, you'll see small bank surronded by glass walls and metal, blue collumns, covered my little roof. On right side of small structure they're two-way rails. Whole area is surrounded my overgrown grass and arable fields. Everybody have one thing in common- suprisingly similar rate of using hankerchief. As time is passing, more of them are looking on table filled with numbers (isn't it timetable?) and their watches or mobiles, obvoiusly checking time. Some of them have nervous expressions on their faces.
Finally! Almost everybody have relieved expressions, few still are nervous. From somewhere you can see a light, then a number and then whole tram appears. After few minutes of uncertainity it arrived.
But it isn't end of hardships. In long-awaited tram welcomes you very unpleasant smell and after few looks you can tell it's from the man at the end of car. You go in the opposite direction. Hmmm, it's warm here. But nothing good last long. For your moment of unawareness you pay by smelling burning smell coming from heater. You can't open window because you'll freeze and some old man or woman will close it soon anyway. All what you can do is telling yourelf it won't last long and try to distract yourself.
Ater half of hour you leave. Congratullation, you survived. But don't get too confident, soon, you'll have to come back, the same way. It's not always that easy. You could meet drunks or beggers. Public tramsport is always full of suprises...

* Do you know Ayabie's 'Cubic' [l/r]ock' and An Cafe's 'I go to school by bus' ? Well, I used obviously this two titles, because they matched here and I often listen to them while going to school to cheer myself up ^^

untitled

2009-02-04T15:57:48Z

Because I wouldn't know how to title this entry anyway. Yesterday I noticed I hadn't posted anything since month, so... I wanted also to change at least header (I had had Kamijo one since November O.O), then my ps betrayed me and it all took longer thn I expected. A tak w ogóle nie rozumiem, czemuż to piszę po angielsku, skoro te kilka osób, dla których jest to niezbędne do zrozumienia moich wypocin, ich nie komentują. Trudno, takie jest prawo dżungli xP

Po pierwsze, to bardziej denerwująca część mojej rodziny wyniosła się do niedzieli i jestem z tego powodu oficjalnie szczęśliwa <3 Tak, moja rodzina jest przeurocza: jak miałam perspektywy, aby wynieść się do dziadków, to mój ojciec naopowiadał im, jaka to ja jestem wredna, zła itp. Cóż, jego problem, to on będzie musiał męczyć się ze mną kilka lat dłużej.

Po drugie, mam nadzieję, że tasak Cass i inne narzędzia tortur sprezentowane jej z okazji 17. urodzin służą jej wiernie. Z takiego tasaka, to sama z chęcią skorzystałabym.

Po trzecie, w końcu udało mi się namówić matkę na jakiś normalny internet. Koniec neocholerą i piekielną linią, yea!

Po czwarte, w końcu z tytułu coraz bardziej widocznej choroby obijam się w domu, oglądam pierdoły (taaak, a głównie książkę od WoSu i polskiego xP) i straszę w różowym szlafroczku. A historyczka na mnie poluje z racji 'zwiania' ze sprawdzianu. Hmmm... to jak będzie z tym tasakiem?

Po piąte, mam nadzieję, że mojego stanu zdrowia nie widać zbytnio po treści tej notki (a zwłaszcza angielskiego początku).

*~~

2009-01-04T21:59:55Z

I couldn't bring myself to write this entry for so long time x.X Since Christmas eve, that's nearly two weeks, which passed too fast >.>

o1. I have already no money left from presents >.> Presents weren't also the best, anything I've dreamed of, but, but my bro running around wearing my pink/full of frills clothes was worth of it xD

o2. And why I haven't money... Well, day before New Year's eve I cut my hair, about 20cm by lenght ^^ It reached my waist and now is to shoulders. I'd felt quilty about it for a moment, but my hair needed it anyway, it's fallen out in enormous quanity and pretty damaged xP And it's wonderful, to wash your hair in 10minutes ^^ (how it looks like: click! sorry for size, but my mobile's camera is poor >.<). Then...

o3. New Year's eve ^^ I don't know what to write about, but thanks to all of you ~~especially one, who reads this, but is too lazy to get her own lj~~, it was wonderful <3 I won't give any photos, because I don't have them and you wouldn't believe there weren't any drugs there after seeing them xD

o4. Nice suprise for me is new Ayabie's look. I'm totally in love and Aoi is so classy *.*

I don't want him as my pet anymore. He HAS to become my ~~first~~ second husband <333

wish you hateful christmas....

2008-12-23T23:51:42Z

Because I'm going to spend next few days at my grandparents'...

Merry Christmas everyone~~

from me and Louie ^^

Love, loathe etc.

2008-12-13T12:56:37Z

Why loathe? Because it sounds better than simple hate.

I can't wait for Christmas holidays... Two weeks of sleeping as much as I want, no see with most of more idiotic part of my classmates, standing on stop wondering why this time tram hadn't arrive and many other things I won't miss. Previous week while waiting for tram I watched few men putting together angel's figure and setting it on crossroad. I'm not religious, but I really can't wait for Christmas.

Yesterday sunrise was so wonderful <3 Whole sky was red and shapes black of old building and trees... it looked like some kind of landscape after big fire, beautiful <3

I have to go back to physic and math if I want to pass with something less pathetic >.> And being ill doesn't help at all. Hieh, whatever, I'm suprised I still care.

One big nothing.

2008-11-19T21:18:15Z

I don't know why I'm exactly writing this entry, I haven't anything to say, after all.

I won't bore you out of your mind by relation from my test-to-test life, which is going to look like that until Christmas if not longer, I won't bore you with my whining about lack of money. I won't talk about my insomnia during night and habit of falling asleep in trams. I wonder, if I'd made list containing all my complaints and then recycled whole paper I used to do this, I would use whole forest or just half.

Well, the only constructive thing there is, I changed layout. I don't know about you, but I think journal looks better now.

~~Besides, I've used all painkillers in my house while not have enough money to buy new, so my head is killing me now >.<~~

love, hate, fuck, noble...

2008-11-07T19:48:59Z

Nyaaa, it took me so long to force myself to write anything here~~

Hieh, this week was quite depressive. You know, you're waking up at 5am, it's dark and cold outside, then two hours later you're waiting for a tram, fogged fields around you. Or darkness and coldness second and at 5pm, depends on day. And whole week this way. Still the same people, yelling one louder that another. Actually, seeing them gives you a headache. And nothing can keep your interest for more than 5minutes.

The, while going home from school on Thursday I met my friend from lower secondary school. I hadn't seen her for sooo long time and our schedules are opposite, so we couldn't find time to meet each other. We were talking, laughing, eating chocolate (liquor one *.*) and making fun of everything around us...

By the way, it explains title of this entry xD Probably everyone have heard all of those super-trendy-whateverwordtheyuse-girls talking about something? Oh, g/bosh... and using word 'love' in any situation is just so oh my gosh, now they say 'hate'. So, why don't go a little further? Next English word known by probably everyone is 'fuck'. Later I wanted to show her Wilhelm and first song on playlist was 'zombie' by Versailles from 'Noble' album. Amen.

Not big thing, meeting someone, but I'm feeling like I can survive whole November without coffee or chocolate ^^

So, love, hate, fuck, noble, to everybody ^^

sleep...

2008-10-25T12:14:04Z

Recently, I wish I could fall in winter sleep. It'd be quite nice: in late autumn fall asleep and wake in march, not bothering, what's happening around. Or simply close myself in some cave, high in mountans, deep forest around. Wilhelm with loader (my ipod's name), few books and I can spend winter there. Or even whole year...

My new kitten

2008-10-13T19:38:59Z

Today I did something, what I've planned to do since a veeery long time.
I've fallen in love from first sight. Now I have to starve in school untill next month, but who really cares about money? My love is worth it <3

And~~~~welcome my new piece of perfection <3

I only don't know how to name it >.>

....

2008-10-06T21:21:59Z

o1. I'd like to thank everybody for birthday wishes. I really appereciate them and every single wish means there's somebody who cares for me enough to say something nice to me ^^

o2. This wishes really helped me, since from last week I'm in something... I don't know how to call it, nothing exept 'Mid- autumn depression ~arriving at October '08~' comes to my mind... Even some pink blonde from other class gave me sympathical glance. Well, then I had to look horrible >.>

o3.. And about my birthday, I rellaxed a bit, because of birthday party by my family. ~~I've received quite a lot of money so I could spent most of them on Sunday xD~~ And now I don't have to worry I don't have anough money for everything, because...

o4. I'm not attending Plastic Tree's concert, what I planned to do. And it's not like I don't have anyone to go with, my parents didn't agree etc. (well, latest one has some true... I just had to press them a little more ^^') No, anything like this. Simply teacher, without my agreement, signed me in for history olympiad and first stage is on 17th October, exactly the same day as concert. And I can't arrive there on time. Great? Well, I can't believe it, I'm probably the only one person in the world who has this sort of twisted luck...If we can talk about any luck.

Kittens ♥♥♥

2008-09-27T13:48:49Z

Today my grandparents ~~dragged~~ took me to gardening exposition. It was boring ~~like hell~~ until I noticed cat's exposition. And I want to have a cat so badly...

Unfortunatly, there were only persian and birman cats. Fortunatly, every one of them was soooo cute *.* I'd take all if I could (and who cares about my degu, it's old anyway xD) ^^ When seller took out of cage gild persian to show one woman, it immedinately turned to me and wanted to play <3 It feels who want him the most xD But really, I love cats and most of them seems to like me too ^^

Even my grandma liked birman cats. And I hope she won't stop, I'm moving to her flat soon, soooooo... ^^' I wanted to take photos of them, but they were shy and it's hard to take photo of cat, when it tries to catch your strap xD

(that's how birman cat looks like, how persian looks probably everyone knows ^^')

Dedication: to Mickiewicz

2008-09-22T20:12:58Z

'Somebody should pour in his drink Laxigen! Maybe if it purged him, he'd stopped writing shit about fucking nonsenses!'*

That's what I foud when my friend opened her book during Polish class on Friday. Teacher said, to find dedication... and she found it xD Unfortunatly, she returned this one to library today T.T

* It's free translation of what was written in book. However, I'm not so good at translating vulgarisms, so it might not be understable at first ^^'

Love cocoa

2008-09-17T18:52:27Z

I haven't drunk cocoa for... five years? Or even more? I don't know, but from some reason I stopped liking it, then grew to love coffee and it lied somewhere with memories from kindergarten and zero class (?).
Now, I have to say- I love schools: not working heating, windows which can as well stay open. So cold~~ Then, there was idea to bring something hot....
- Cocoa?
Next day, few people brought mugs and we enjoyed hot coca in maths' class <3

Cocoa is love ♥♥♥♥

And I feel like dedicate my reactivation note to cocoa~~

happy birthday~~

2008-07-02T20:57:50Z

Today was my sister's birthday. So me with my bro have made cake for her~

There's something heart-sharped (since she wanted heart-sharped cake, but oh well...), there's a candle, just cake went somewhere... but who cares xD

Hieh, today I've let my degu to run a little in my flat. I always wish to have a cat, but as Olek (it's its name) was walking I realised, how old is it (abt. 5 years- it's age when degus usualy die) and it's seriusly ill. It has cataract, very common illness among degus. It had problem with noticing chair's legs. I was close to cry TT.TT

Welcome~

2008-06-29T21:45:07Z

Welcome everybody on my new LiveJournal ^^
~~First of all, I want to apologize for mistakes I may make- English isn't my first language, so... ^^' Besides, this is my fist LJ, so probably few things doesn't work as I want them to ^^''''~~

I'd like to thank sabaku_no_lita for forcing me into having a LJ and listening my complaints when this whole CSS thing becomes too confusing xP

To put it simply, love you all, I hope somebody will read my journal regularly... Some thing aren't ready for now (like profile) but I promise to improve it soon ^^

Luv ya all ♥♥♥